100 things note…blah blah blah

1. Made out for more than 3 minutes?  uh huh

2. Slept in a different bed? yeahh
3. Made out in a movie theatre? yeah
4. made out with 2 different people in one night? unfortunately…
5. Thought your cousin was hot? nope.
6. Been in love? yes sir
7. Slept? Um? yes….i sleep every night…baha
8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex? nope!
9. Gone over the speed limit? everyday!
10. Painted your room? yes
11. Drove a car? everyday!
12. Danced in front of your mirror? haha a few times ;)
13. Gotten a hickey? ugh…twice. they’re horrid
14. Been dumped? nahh
15. Stole money from a friend? nope!
16. Gotten in a car with people you just met? nahh 
17. Been in a fist fight? I really would like to be in one right now…
18. Snuck out of your house? only for food haha
19. Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back? yes :’( 
20. Been arrested? not ever not never
21. Made out with a stranger? nope.
22. Left your house with out telling your parents? wouldn’t that be like sneaking out? haha
23. Had a crush on your neighbor? HAHA funny story…
24. Ditched school to do something more fun? oh yeah
25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same or opposite sex ? duh. sleepovers
26. Seen someone die? my doggie :’(
27. Been on a plane? yes
28. Kissed a picture? yes
29. Slept in until 3? psh yahhh
30. Love someone or miss someone right now? both. ;) <3
31. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? of course!
32. Made a snow angel? most def!
33. Played dress up? oh yeahh
34. Cheated while playing a game? haha like once!
35. Been lonely? yes :/
36. Fallen asleep at work/school mhmm
37. Been to a club? not quite
38. Felt an earthquake? nope!
39. Touched a snake? yes
40. Ran a red light? by accident!
41. Been suspended from school? nope!
42. Had detention.. nope!
43. Been in a car? um…wow….dumb question.
44. hated the way you look? daily
45. Witnessed a crime? yes
46. Been lost? yes
47. Been to the opposite side of the country? yEAH!
48. Felt like dying from embarrassment? sort of
49. Cried yourself to sleep? alot…
50. Sang karaoke? haha fun fun! yes
51. Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do? ughh GOD YES
52. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? like once
53. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? mhmm :)
54. Kissed in the rain? oh my gosh yes! it was just as amazing as on the notebook for real!
55. Sung in the shower? yes not usually tho! haha
56. Had a dream that you married someone? yes
57. played getting married? not that I can remember lol
58. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? haha nope 
59. Ever gone to school partially nude? nope!
60. Been a ? been a….what?
61. Sat on a roof top? yes
62. Didn’t take a shower for a week? NOOOOO
63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone? only a few rare times
64. Played chicken? yes
65. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? ughh yes…
66. Been told you’re hot by a complete stranger? yeah. its mostly creepy when they do that…nice…but creepy…
67. Broken a bone? once
68. Been easily amused? every single day!
69. Laugh so hard you cry? oh yes yes yes
70. Cheated on a test? only a few times, but yes :( 
71. Forgotten someone’s name? alot, im bad with names
72. Blacked out from drinking? not ever
73. Played a prank on someone? alot!
74. Gone to a late night movie? mhmm
75. Made love to anything not human? AHHHHHHH EWWWW AHHHHHHH NOOOOOO OH MY GOSH
76. Failed a class? yeah
77. Choked on something you’re not supposed to eat? eww
78. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? not ever
79. Cheated on a girlfriend/boyfriend? :(
80. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? yes
81. Thrown strange objects? puhhh heck yeah
82. Felt like someone? felt like someone….what lol 
83. Thought about running away? ALOT. 
84. Ran away? not ever
85. Had detention and not attend it? nope
86. Made parents cry? once :( 
87. Cried over someone? a whole lot. 
88. Owned more than 5 sharpies? not at one time
89. Dated someone more than once? nope!
90. Have a dog? yes <3 shes the bomb
91. Own an instrument? yes
92. Been in a band? school band. that is all
93. Drank 25 sodas in a day? NOOOO
94. Broken a cd? yes
95. Shot a gun? yes
96. Been on myspace for more than 5 hours? no. not a myspace fan
98. Have a major crush on someone right now? my boyfriend <3 its a love crush ;)
99. Have a religion? a relationship not a religion <3
100. Thought about what people would say at your funeral?alot.

Bipolar…

UGHHHHHHHH some people are just so impossible to please. 

It goes like this. Ok, friendship is a two-way street. if YOU are expecting ME to always always always be the one to iniate conversation, it won’t work. I’m sorry that I can’t always stay on my phone all day; I can hardly stay awake all day as is! Gah! Also if when I try you continue to close yourself off and wont open up and allow me to be there for you then ok…what’s the point?! I am a woman and I don’t understand myself, so don’t expect me to understand you either woman. Sorry just want to vent because I don’t feel like actually saying this out loud. 

I really hate when things go like this. It’s a waste of life to act this way. 

I’m just going to leave and move to Africa. Seriously I wish I could pick up and kiss this country goodbye and all its inhabitants. Life should have much more meaning then mine does.

It’s getting time for me to change my theme….:)

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Ever get in that mood where you just do not wanna speak too anyone? It’s complicated for me to explain I guess but…I just…I don’t know feel so distant from people back home at the moment…I’m sure this is all in my head but I feel it in my heart. I’ve known for quite some time that I am not going to move back home ever again (unless God wants to be funny and change his plans for me ;) or I rather should say reveal something different for me.) but maybe it has finally completely hit me…I really miss my best friends and it stinks that I am so far away. I am really happy that they get to see each other often because they do need to stand strong together and treasure the wonderful friendship that our group of girls share together! <3 It just sucks being the “one” who is so far away that it gets hard to contribute. The miles shouldn’t matter I know but still it just stinks sometimes…Ah well. Maybe I’ll get out of this funk and think of something…

God Bless.